I was not expecting much when Peggy and I showed up for our meeting this week. Though I am an optimist by nature, time and circumstances have worn away (only slightly) some of my natural optimism thereby minimizing any potential disappointment.
That being said, I have to say Peggy and I were rewarded by a group of people who seem truly capable of caring, not only about each other, but strangers as well ...I dare say.
Thank you all for the experience.
I tend to do more listening in my initial encounters with "aliens" to evaluate (judge), and ponder (fake wisdom) where or how I might fit in (impose my will on you).
In any case my deep philosophical questions come in spasms and for the most part I don't really care about that type of conversation. I have my issues with God, as Todd well knows as well as minor fits of depression which sometimes debilitate me but all that aside, I care much about social issues and to that end I work, volunteering my time, as a board member on the NAMI New Mexico Board.(national alliance on mental illness)
So in conclusion you may be asking yourself: how can he deal with depression AND be an optimist for the most part? Answer: Mania under control = optimism.
My love and God's best to you all. I hope we get to know each other intimately and I can gradually feel more comfortable sharing my experiences (Dumping) with you.
HotelCarcel aka Sam [I forgot I had a Google account under, of all things, HotelCarcel. remind me and I will tell you about this one :>)]
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Thanks for your input and participation Sam. You bring a lot to this group and it was really great to meet your wife!
To tell you the truth, I didn't know what to expect of this group either. I'm way more of a Martha (doer) than a Mary (worshipper/thinker) - although I've realized the great importance of being still to hear God speak. I love new ideas and visionary leadership and I find that there aren't a whole lot of "safe" places to dream and bounce ideas about where God may be leading. As I said, I came out of a pretty tough situation in my former church and I'm just now getting my feet under me again.
I'm usually a very happy person but I'm also prone to bouts of depression. I'm blessed to have friends who recognize the signs and keep me from coming too close to the edge and I've also learned strategies that help. Being part of this group and following what I feel God's been pushing me toward for years has made me feel more useful and energized than I've felt in a LONG time.
Thanks for the info on the projectors. Life took off on me but I'll get with you shortly. See you soon! Alli.
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